So, it has been one week since beginning my medication and I am not quite sure how I feel.

For the first 4 or 5 days, I literally felt stupid. Like my IQ had been cut in half. Everything was very overwhelming. I had problems making decisions, answering questions, and even holding casual conversations.

I am an intelligent person. I may come off as an air head, but my ASVAB, SAT, and ACT scores suggest otherwise. It is highly out of character for me to feel… dumb.

I was constantly upset about it. I would get really frustrated when my husband would ask for me to decide on dinner and even angrier when I sat down to write. Nothing made sense to me. My speech was slurred, I was experiencing fine hand tremors, and I couldn’t focus. Things are somewhat clearer, but I am still having issues with understanding and processing. It’s not fair.

I know touched on feeling too groggy for too long in the last blog, and that bit seems to have improved. I am still having issues staying on a schedule for my meds, but that is on me. I just need to be more vigilant. I probably haven’t been drinking enough water either.

Something strange did happen yesterday. Out of nowhere, I developed a burning pain in my jaw area. It felt like fire, in the weird part under your tongue. It spread from one corner of my jaw to the other, into my ear and down my throat as I swallowed. I’ve never felt anything like it before. It was like a strep throat kind of pain.

I’m not sure if it was a symptom of one of my medications or if it is something else, so I am going to call my psychiatrist and ask. I was supposed to go get a blood test done today but my doctor wasn’t in anyway. Guess I’ll kill two birds with one stone tomorrow.

I also noticed that I have been incredibly irritable. My husband and I have been bickering for the last 3 days. I don’t know if something is wrong with the relationship but he keeps telling me the only thing that has changed is that I am taking something now. I’m not buying it, but fine. Let this shit get into my system and then I’ll figure it out.

And I have been doing a little bit more around the house. Well, kinda. I have been putting out some new articles, though! I pledged to put out a new one every day in February and I started 2 days early.

It’s not a lot. But it is something.